You Colour My Life

Happy Birthday To You & Me!

2007-10-18T17:27:00.001+08:00

A day that is different from the past 17/10. A day that other than accepting gift, I prepared gift for her. A day to remember - 17/10/2007...

First celebration: Thank you all those who came to my room and celebrate (sabo) my birthday. The fried rice with wedges is damn "nice". And not to forget about the powder, super cooling and reminds me of army powder bathe! I was really touched by the birthday song you guys sang. Though wasn't very nice but the thoughts that you guys put in make it very touching... Thanks fellow hall mates!!!!!!

Second Celebration: Thanks pal!!! Terence!!! And also all those who came to celebrate this special day with me:).. Xiu, Chende, Jas, Bird and Chyi... Though is quite disappointing that some of you last min couldn't make it but I can understand you have your reason and work to cope with also. Anyway I still appreciate your thoughts... the calls and smses.. thanks alot peeps!!!

Presents: A yellow levis tee from Charissa.. A bag from Xiu, Chende and Qin... A polo tee from Bird... and something from Ter, Meng and Jas that I have yet to receive it.. but it sounded very mysterious.. Thanks for all the gift!!! I really like them all!!!

I will upload the picture soon...

Last but not least, Happy Birthday to Charissa too!!!

A line difference: Yes or No

2007-09-29T03:48:00.000+08:00

It had been quite awhile since my last post.

Days in sch still remain so hectic and tough. Everyday is full of school work to catch up especially after a long relaxing FOC. Hasn't been able to put my mind focusing on the notes and really get into study mode. I just simply can't concentrate and read. Even for a short sentence and i mean a very very short sentence. Wonder what the hell is going in my brain?

I got to know this girl during FOC and happen that we shared the same birthday!!! It's amazing ain't! Perhaps is this bond that makes me feel comfortable talking to her and able to share with her without any hesitation. Her giggling laughter and smile kinda makes my day. I am seriously falling for her.. For the cold 4 years, this girl kinda makes my heart come back a life. But to be frank, I am scare of love.. or will it be another 4 years.. I love to know but will i?

Try and you failed or fail that you didn't try?

Car wash

2007-06-24T00:44:00.000+08:00

Another day of hanging out with Meng. Went Ang Mo Kio to eat the western meals. Quite nice and filling. Ang Mo Kio was a place with quite some memories. The place where my ex girlfriend live. Those memories kinda flashes when I walk past those familar places. She's a nice and caring girl. Hope she's doing well now:)

Took a stroll at the Ang Mo Kio Hub. Quite a big place with newly opened Cathay cineplex. After that, went Tampines Mega Courts to get some cushion. Followed by makan at pasar malam in Punggol. Brought the takeaway from pasar malam and ate at my car boot. lol.. Quite romantic with the hazard light flashing and great music with bass and tremble coming from the car. Shark fin soup, ramy burger, drinks and tapioca cake. Not bad ya. Drove Meng home and he asked if I want to go wash car. After being indecisive for awhile, I decide to wash. So both of us drove our car to the washing bay and started the battle. Is it abit crazy? Washing at night? lol.. But it was fun, enjoyable although it was damn tired. Great work pal. Your car is damn clean now!!! So is mine right? haha... I never care what other says but not to those close one. Should i change my mindcept? Anyway, after washing the car we went to the nearby cheers. Trying to get the food for Lucky, Meng's doggie. Unfortunately, only got kitten food. Haha.. An uncle smoked Meng to go Hougang Mall, saying there's a shop and save 24 hours. There only got NTUC la uncle!! haha.. By then, I already headed home. A tired day.

You live if even if you are unhappy,
so why not try to be happy...

Moodless, bad mood or mood swing?

2007-06-22T22:30:00.000+08:00

Moody..
Moodless..
Unhappy..
Furious..
or is it mood swing?

There was an anger deep inside me. It was not good. I was appearing very frustrated. Once again, it was due to her. Sometimes words from her just doesn't appear nice or even i felt it was like a knife coming towards me. Many many torns that really hurts. Even a very bad or lousy person do have their own pride. Or should I say I can accept critics but not so many. Shouldn't there be some words of encouragement? It hurts even more when I was brought to compare with other friends of her. Seems like i'm a weirdo. Or is it that we are 2 different person and our friends are completely different? I don't like the idea of keep being compared with other people. It sucks. Really sucks.

I am beginning to feel that the love for her is totally one-sided. And really should be put to an ultimate end. Afterall she's attached already. I want to forget it!!! Don't always come and go.. It really hurt me alot... You won't know how I feel cause you ain't me.. And would you ever stand in my position and think? Never. I am disappointed with those words that came from her and she didn't even know I am angry. Obviously she don't care and can't be bother. If she think this way, no matter what I say she will never believe. She sticks to her way. Never believe me. In that case, there's no point saying any more. Both stubborn. Nothing goes the right way.

Keep away from me.

IF ONLY THINGS CAN BE SO SIMPLE...

2007-06-21T21:07:00.000+08:00

If only I can ORD earlier...
If only my presentation date is not 10th Jul...
If only I could let her go...
If only things can be so simple...

Special semester started. To my dismay, the presentation date clashes with my ORD date. How am i suppose to be at 2 location at the same time? Solution pls!!!

Love is so complicated. It comes and goes, come and goes... There's still this little girl lying in my heart and it seems so hard to get rid of it. I know what is the right way but I couldn't control the feelng underlying my heart...

If only things can be so simple......

SATURDAY

2007-06-16T01:07:00.000+08:00

It was a rainy saturday. Together with Meng and Yingsi, we went to the Goodwood Park Hotel to have a durian bite. I'm not fanatic over durians but definately not someone who hate it either. Personally i felt that the durian puff was simply great. Frozen durian that simply melts in your mouth. Nice! The 2 of them was saying Joo Chiat got another shop which serve even better durian puff that they tried before. One day i will go and try it!! Anyone want company me? haha..

Had a simple but quite enjoyable day. Plenty of eating, walking and driving. And of course alot of shouting and grumbling of me by miss chatlotte. Shit! My feeling starts to come again! I better buried it deeper!! haha.. Went to Far East Plaza to walk around and i think is really time to do some shopping one of this day. So many nice shoes and apparels!!! But doesn't seems to attract both of them. One has too many clothing in her wardrobe and the other wasn't too keen with the trend there. Working personnel.

Dinner was consumed at East Coast Park. Satay Bee Hoon, Stingray, Wan Ton Mee and Chicken wings plus sugar cane drinks. Tasty, filling and alot of mosquito! haha.. After meal, we had a stroll to the wakeboarding area. Seriously it looks fun. Seeing those very young small kids trying it and i have the urge to go for it despite i couldn't swim. Frankly, i had a phobia to deep water. But the deepest i even jump into was a 5 metre deep pool and from around 10 metre high, I wonder how i manage to swim myself back onto land??? It was amazing. Perhaps one of these days, i will go learning swimming myself and one day i will try the wakeboard!!! Sea sports! Well, another lady was also very impressive. She's determined. Seeing her failed to balance herself up and keep falling. But she never gave up, continue trying and finally she succeeded Even she fall at the middle portion but it was already a very good try and progress. Sports need determination!

From ECP, we went to geylang and brought some beancurd and egg tart for supper. A long queue at the rochor stall. But the food was nice. Send them home and finally my duty ended. The horrendous mountain turtle can rest lo!!!

Goodnight everyone.

TIRED

2007-05-15T23:18:00.000+08:00

Another very tired day.

Was feeling sleepy from time to time. Once again nothing much to do in camp. Was basically typing some stuff for the new officer. It seems to be his task and i'm being arrow to do it. But somehow i took it very willingly. It was very tough to be sitting down at the desk doing nothing for the whole day. Each day i am pondering what is the next time i am suppose to do? what should i do tomorrow? I'm just like a extra manpower and seems redundant. Furthermore, my stay was a short one, going to last for only 2 months. Counting down each day now. Today was a special day, having a major event at Selarang camp. Change-of-command parade, stepping down of division comd. Our branch people were asked to attend this ceremony. Another COC i witnessed. Should be the last during my service period. Reached home at around 630pm and was very tired. Have a shower and on my television to catch some show. Fall asleep on the chair. Hell tired. Going to ZZZ soon. Another boring day tomorrow. Few more days to endure before weekend!!!

~ENDURE~

28 weeks later

2007-05-14T19:40:00.000+08:00

A rainy sunday.

Hasn't got enough sleep over the past few days and not to say today. Freaking tired and sleepy. Still i forced myself to go ikea in the afternoon to research for the hall D&D doorgift. Manage to get Chende to accompany me there. Had a long walk inside, looking for small items suitable for gift and of course photoshoot them. "Swedish meat ball". This is the dish that definately will be eating whenever i came ikea. Must be the influence by Niu. Had some food after a long tiring walk inside. Swedish meat balls, diam cake, chicken wings and pepsi light. By the way, that's part of my dinner! Saw alot of stuff that i planned to get when moving hall. Time to save up abit for those stuff. Finish with my research and went back to tampines. Meet yumeng for a short session at Ya Kun kaya toast. Soon after, went for a show with si. 28 weeks later. Wonder if we didn't met for 28 weeks also? haha.. Anyway, pretty a nice show. Continued from 28 days later. Guess 28 months later might be the next one. haha.. Some bad point commented by her, some of the killing scene jump rather fast and is kinda confusing.

What a tired day!! Worse still is that tomorrow need to go back camp again... freaking boring!!!

End of Project, Start of NS

2007-05-10T21:05:00.000+08:00

It marks the end of the long tedious project work when Prof Chew finally announced the end of the exhibition. It was a long tired day indeed. Standing, sitting, talking. It was like salesperson introducing our product to the prof and fellow sch mates. And even more incredible was grabing "customers" from other booth, underhanded method. haha..

The day started off with me missing the ringing of my alarm clock and fortunately was awaken by my mum. By the time, it was already 0830hrs and i need to be at the exhibition hall by 0930hrs. A rush journey. I brush through everything, tidy up my dressing, put on my shoe and went off to fetch a cab. No traffic jam, a smoothy ride and i was 15mins late. But it actually doesn't matter cause no one was there to check the attendance. What done cannot be undone, waste money again. The nightmare started after. Whole day of standing, introducing the product to people. What fortunate is that most of the time the speaker wasn't myself, it was kian hao doing the tough job. However, it was a remarkable performance for him. Speaking like a professional salesperson and each talk was different!!! The rest of us were listening to him and at the same time trying to grab more "customers". During the exhibition, we spent some time walking around as well, looking at other people booth. The booth surrounding ours was extremely outstanding! Alot of creative structure building model, and some scientist type of product. Definately outshine the dark stupid mosquito product we made. The project will be voted online and only top 10 project will be voted. 3 winners - gold, silver, bronze and 7 commendation awards. The votes was not fully based on the product while based on the matter of whether you know the person or is he a good friends of your. It was lucky of us to have the "First lady" or the girlfriend of CEE club president. It will cast more votes? The results was out and we didn't got into top 10. haha.. Anyway, what matter most is the process and more importantly is everything ended! Time to enjoy the short moment!

Oh ya one bad new, tomorrow i need to report back camp. Time to go sleep. Blog again when free!! eh people post some words leh!!! haha.. Enjoy the vacation!!

Poly Gathering

2007-05-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

A day to gather. Venue @ Lau Pa Sat, 1830hrs.

It was a surprise gathering organised by Nazrah and Qin. They did a good job. Quite a number of people turn up. Nine. It was a number that i didn't really expect to reach. People who turned up: Qin, Nazrah, Jia Bao, Yiwen, Kayan, Chyi Lin, Zhi wei, Terence and me. For majority, It wasn't really a very long time since we last met each other. Most of us are schooling in NTU while only a one or two are working or schooling elsewhere.

The event started well with plenty of conversation going around while walking toward LPS. Ordered a few hala dishes with plain rices for our dinner. Not a bad one, although i felt it was rather expensive. It followed by a second round of satay. Had a slow walk from LPS to city hall mrt. By then, Nazrah, Terence and Chyi lin headed home while the rest of us went to starbucks for another crappy session. I had a feeling that everyone doesn't seems to have anymore topics to talk about. It was some how weird and seems like we are trying to "sqeeuze" out something to talk about. The topics always range from guy's army to schooling and maybe some girls gossip. Still it was endless. The gathering ended with Qin bf coming to fetch her home and so the rest of us took the public transport home. Had a great time, quite a successful gathering. Looking forward to the next one in Jul. Take care everyone!

A great day!

Exam Over!!!

2007-04-27T22:41:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time since i last wrote anything here...

Finally, i endure the toughest time for this semester. Personally, I guess it was also a record breaking moment: 8 days and 5 papers!!! I make it through but you should know what kind of results to expect either. The exam started off with 2 papers. Ultimate demoralising. Worse of all, the toughest 2 paper was the last two. As the exam goes further, most of us will be thinking of the arrival of the vacation. BUT not for me!! only got more white hair appearing!!! Anyway, its all over and i'm now left with the last project to complete by 10th May. It's a 1AU thing so i'm not going to exert any more pressure to myself. Hopefully, my group member can work hand in hand and things goes smoothly! It's really good that exam ended earlier than most people. Everything feel so light and easy. For those who are still struggling, all the best to you guys!!! Waiting for the big celebration we all going to had after the last paper of the exam ended.

Thinking of a short holiday now and i am reallygoing abroad. Going to an island called Pulau Tekong! Back to NS... Another challenging moment. Back to the "vulgar" world of trainee. But the fortunate thing is that i'm going back for only 2months. Hopefully the task will be an easy one. The place full of memorise with the whole bunch of great camp mates. I should be able to see some of those people, and may even ORD with them i suppose. 11th May. Coming back soon guys!

Oh ya almost forgotten i'm in the hall 11 D&D committee. Time to work on the task assigned during the previous meeting. Going to ikea before i gotta go back camp report, anyone interested?

School Reopen

2007-03-06T18:23:00.000+08:00

It just flash over and term break had ended. Nothing much was done during the short period. Being pre-occupied by the microbiology quiz on the 2nd day as soon as school starts. I definately had a horrible time studying all the uninteresting and dry material. I am being bias. I admit it. Due to the past poly experience, I really gave up hope on this topic. Everything isn't like the past anymore, people changes and so do I. I lost interest. Trying to struggle out of the maze and re-adjust my mood. It is definately tough. I am happy to have a few great friends being there for me. Thanks guys and girls! I really appreciate it.

Someone may be happy at this moment and someone else may be crying at the other end. That is life. But the world would not stop turning due to happiness or unhappiness. I have to say i gain alot over the years. Being a nice guy to others will only turn out to be taken forgranted by others. Well, still remember going to the fengshui shop at parkway parade. The shop owner helped me checked my personality and some stuff to aid my luck and fortune. He mention I am a stubborn person. Am I?? It was my stubborness that make me stay in that bad situation for years. Lately, I find that I am getting some light out of the hole. I will turn away from her and never go back in again. No more mails, no more msn, no more phone call.. NOTHING. Stay away from the heartless and cherish the surrounding happiness. Learn from mistakes and improve my life.

Weekend ended

2007-02-26T21:32:00.000+08:00

Enjoying the short moment of weekend. And now is time to revise during the short term break.

It have been a tired weekend with lots of time at pool junction and basketball. And not to mention a great companion, Bird. While since a long time that i went out with him. Have quite some fun playing pool with him. He is a great player and a serious person. Focus and strive to win. Hahaha.. Great game. Had a supper on sat late night or shld i say sun early morning, whatever.. Was chatting and recap on the past. Talking about basketball last time during secondar school and those time we played for an team. Out of the sudden, we seems quite enthusiatic on playing. So we did it. And was a very last minute arranged one. Played early in the morning on sunday. And it seems that my passing was better than before. As commented last time by Bird that my passing sucks. I improved. haha.. After the game, we went home to wash up and meet up again to republic plaza. Went there to support Qin, Terence, Xiu, Chyi and their friends. They finished the vertical marathon of 60 storeys. WOW impressive! Congratulation ladies and guys!!! Went to marina square with them after that. They went to eat carls' JR while me and Bird went shop around. Plenty entertaining. Follow by another pool session. This marks the end of my weekend. Time to start revising during the term break!

V day equal Very Busy Day

2007-02-14T23:59:00.000+08:00

14th February 2006. Valentine day? or very busy day? is just another normal day to me. Perhaps no date and full of quizes on the next day. Past few weeks i am thinking of celebrating this day with her. But after few weekend of disappointment i totally give up on it already. And add on to it, i have 2 quizes the following day.

This week had been a hectic week. 3 quizes, 2 proposal and 1 lab report due. Well, is this the way school going to treat us as CNY celebration? YES!!! Maybe after CNY will be more relax? Fat hope! another quiz on the next friday!!! Ok i just have to bear for awhile more. And the next week will be a one week break to rest, study and catch up with school work!

Heard the radio broadcast and one of the person who called mention about $$$ in the society nowadays. It says everyone care about cars, money, condo etc. In the past, i don't really believe in it but now i do. When you have all that, you will see surrounding with more people. This is reality. I hate it. Does true love really exist? I have yet to really feel it till now. Everything seems really dead to me now. Well, believe i still have alot of books to accompany me! haha.. damn shit! Alright, shall cut off the crap now.. got to go back mugging again.. blog again when free.. take care everyone!!

Disappointment

2007-02-11T15:52:00.000+08:00

I am disappointed but used to it already. By now i should know where do i actually stand... Being a not important character and so i'm making only myself miserable. Basically she don't care or bother at all. I totally give up on everything about her. It is really hurtful when i really tried so hard to plan an activity with her. Being busy with school work on the other hand. It makes me really give up on asking her out anymore. So what if i asked long ago? She won't bother to confirm with me before going out with another date or what. Where do i stand? I should know it... Today is a sunday and she say will meet me. She did, mention meeting for a short while at tampines mall which is near her house. What is the point? Ya i know you are busy but is this the best you can give me? There are so much frustration in me.. Don't know what should i say already!

Short Break

2007-02-10T22:44:00.000+08:00

Taking a short break from work. Surfing net and realised i havven't update for quite long. Actually there isn't much to write also. Nothing much exciting over the past weeks. Quite a hectic week of studying and going to be worse in the coming week. Lab report and proposal to be handed up and worse still lots of quizes coming!!! Have to really force myself to read and read and read! No more enjoying anymore after today, or perhaps tomorrow.. haha.. cause i am doing work for the whole of today till now.. Still wondering if tomorrow is a day to go out? or perhap i should just forget about her. Well, have to say my mood is really dropping to the lowest point. Quite pissed at times. But now i won't want to blame anyone for that anymore. It makes no point quarrelling after the thing have already happen. Life is unpredictable. Even if you try so hard to control it, it will still not go your way. So why not keep quiet and don't say anymore. Everyone have their own problems. Guess people won't understand mine like i might not understand theirs. Sometimes i really hope she can understand how i feel. Even if i'm not happy she won't ask why, neither will she cheer me up. Ok maybe sometimes she did ask but if tell her and she think i'm wrong then she will say me.. I've to say i'm not happy and perhaps isn't a right time to confront someone in a bad mood... I can only say that's her character or maybe she don't care about me at all. Sometimes i wished i lost those memories.. Alright! Time to go back to work and forget about the shity stuff! Blog again when i'm free..

Recent Event

2007-02-03T19:31:00.000+08:00

A week with never ending notes to read. A week with more report to be done. A week with quite a few activities. And finally this weekend had arrived but no entertainment or company available.

Had quite alot of work in hand and need to be done by next week. Well, i seriously need to start working on them. Alright even so i did manage to play some sports this few days. Had a basketball game with my cousin and his friends. Been a long time since i ever played basketball. I guess the last time would be during Inter-Hall games. I like playing alot of team basketball. Passing around and winning game as a team. Not to mention, greater individual skills will make it easier. Dribbling the ball and find myself abit rust. Shooting the ball was also quite weird. Really need to touch up on it. That day was a furious one. Played with a guy that seems so scare of losing. Pushing me when i was on the air for a layup or pushing me when i drive past him... that was dangerous and i do not want to injure myself. Confront him and he said that it was unintentional. Ok fine continue to play.. Went for a rebound and he touched the ball last before it fly out of the court. Alright that would be our possession. NO! He touch his chin and say i hit him. Ok i guess that was a small contact and that won't be a foul. Come on, don't expect playing basketball without any contact! He is so girl! And later he added that he did not touch the ball. Alright "gu niang", i'll just give him the ball while my cousin and his friends almost drop their jaw to the ground when he mention that. Suppose he think everyone is blind. Anyway, just another sore loser.

Went home on friday halfway during school cause she is sick. Just wanted to accompany her but she already went to see the doctor. No choice but to go home then. Anyway, most important is that she is fine. Please take care la!!! Slacking at home and had to go back school cause of the inter-hall road relay the next day. Been sick for the past few days and i told her i need to go back school. She told me not to and don't care about my roomie. It was a tough decision. I love to listen to her but on the other hand I still need to answer my roomie. No choice i go back. At least i know she care for me.. and that's enough..:)

Today was the road relay competition. My roomie, dawen, and I overslept. Everyone was waiting for us while we just woke up. Anyway, the relay never really started that early. Anyway, the run started and I can see the adrenaline pumping and pumping in everyone body. There are 2 team for each hall and I was the fouth runner in B. Team A with 2 3 guys and 3 girls while B with 4 guys and 1 girl. Had alot of people cheering everywhere. It was a 2 plus km run. My timing was 7:46s. Better than i expected with my corn still hurting and long time never run. After combining all the timing, we got 7th place out of the total 15. It was a good effort! Finally i can rest!!!

Recently, Meng was feeling quite low. Don't know what exactly happen but hope he'll get back and cheer up. Hope he understand i'm in school during weekdays too. Jia you ba! But there is something i really wanted to tell him.. Please do not keep saying don't want to give empty promise.. Sometimes things just suddenly happen but I guess it would be best not to back out last min. If you aren't confident then just don't agree to it. Anyway, hope you stay happy la.. don't brood over the unhappy stuff. Life still carry on! Life with a smile :)

Pool Junction

2007-01-21T02:05:00.000+08:00

Been feeling very low recently. Alot of emotion and feeling damn vex. Wanted to solve the problem yet it is not so simple. Is it that i'm too stubborn? or should i let go abit and let nature takes it course? But will anything really happen? Or will i end up just waiting for another sad occasion to arrive? This is all unknown and I really got no idea what exactly to do... I am seriously lost... Really hate this feeling... :(

After a long morning of lectures, i went back from NTU to Tampines. Well, i really thought of going to gym to condition myself and so if my roomie require me to run on Sunday short distance heats i will go. But nothing seems to be progressing well, I was being "fly aeroplane" twice a day. She told me to go on sat instead of fri. I was think sat isn't really a good time to condition since if the heats is on sun will i be too worn out? Anyway, in the end she never go and I was quite disappointed as well as angry. Well, look for my best buddy and he agree to go. He wanted to meet slightly later since he just woke up around 12 plus. Alright fine I waited for him as i know if i go alone will be damn bored either. Wait and wait for more than an hour. I was pondering does it takes an hour plus to travel from Sengkang to Tampines? Ok conclusion i might be "flied" again... So it's true when i receive a call moments later from him. He said he forgotten is his sister birthday and his family going out to eat. Ok what else can i say? why not inform me at the very first moment he remembered that... Quite pissed off but i let it go and forget about it. It was rather late and i was totally moodless anymore. Check out the corn on my left foot big toe and it was getting bad. Although the plaster i brought for corn does help abit, it never seems any better. It removed part of the thick layer of skin but i don't think it will ever going to remove it totally. The corn is bigger than the plaster!!! Thus i decided that i shall not run or do any exercise at the moment to make the corn any worse. I need medication!!!

Forget about all those people that left me alone. I smsed Andy and Terence to ask them out for a pool session. Terence working and Andy replied "ok". Finally, it's time to throw all my frustration and anger on the balls! I hope it is not another flight..haha.. Fortunately, it wasn't... I met Andy and his gf at PS, walked to selegie and then to IOI plaza, Pool Junction... Played for awhile.. lost some and won some.. I realised that i hasn't really been playing for quite long. Seriously, i do like pool alot. For those we know me well should know this is my 2nd favourite past time other than basketball. I miss the days that I cleared the table in one cue and seeing the opponent surprise look. I was getting lousier already by now. Can't getting the placing i wanted and stoke isn't as good as the past. Despite all this, yesterday i nearly had a one cue. With only 1 ball left and i snooked myself on that. Quite a disappointing one. Buck up on it! It was 20 plus bucks playing for 2hr plus.. Compare to last time, it was pretty much expensive. Compared to long time ago playing at Tampines Pavilion Kpool, a 5bucks per hour, to now a $10.90 an hour. But i'm already used to the higher quality of playing. I can say it's a worth while one since they provide better cues, tables and atmosphere. You can watch espn while playing pool! And great to say Liverpool won Chelsea in just 20min with 2 goals! And also Terence came down after work to join us for dinner. As usual, after the game we went to the malay coffee shop to have a bite. Prata, mee goreng and bryani. Yum yum.. As soon as the plate were emptied, we headed back home. Me and Terence took bus while Andy and gf went for the train. We took bus 65. Damn long journey. Had a long conversation with Terence on quite alot of stuff. Well, its long time since we ever talk so much. Thanks pal for advice although it might not seems to be any help. haha.. Good luck to you either.. hope you can close up the gap between chyi and your gang.. Reached home at around 12plus am... blog and now sleeping time.. goodnight..

My heart is bleeding

2007-01-18T23:10:00.000+08:00

I'm sad... I'm lost... I don't know what i should do... My heart is pain... Can anyone dig out my heart and just bury it?

Too Stress Yet Too Bored

2007-01-16T22:41:00.000+08:00

Took a few shot using my computer camera... Look quite idiotic..haha..

Simply too bored. Everyday seems to be on a routine basis. Waking up, breakfast, lecture, lunch, more lectures, dinner, study, study, sleep... It's like a never ending cycle and it is definately going to last at least for the next 4 months. I have to say it's uninteresting at all, full of stress and can be damn bored!! Anyone have any advice for me? gotta go sleep... goodnight...

Rain and Flood

2007-01-13T01:21:00.000+08:00

It was another day with extreme heavy rainfall. Had a tired day attending lecture. Might be due to the fact that i slept at around 2-3am. While plus it was raining and provided a very conducive environment for sleeping. Also, at last i settled my modules registration problem. Finally, registered the 2 core modules that i'm suppose to take this semester. Have to really comment on the effectiveness when you go down directly to the undergraduates office for assistance. Much more faster that typing a freaking long email and sent to them with no reply for few days. Anyway, i learned my lesson and glad everything have been settled! Straight after lesson, i rush back to Tampines to accompany Si to the career fair at Temasek Poly. And thus, she gave me a long waiting time... haha.. Told me that she'll come down fast. I went to takeaway so food for lunch and stand downstairs to consume them. Must be wondering why i don't sit? Well, all the benches are wet! flooded everywhere!!! And so i got to stand lo.. worse still carrying my heavy bag.. Waited for almost an hour and finally she came down. My first reaction was not really angry with her. Just feeling very tired. Went straight to TP for the career fair. Quite a small one and jobs booth seems quite little and limited. Fortunately got quite a few engineering course and she registered for a few. Wish her good luck! After that, she went to her friend booth and had some conversation with him. My leg was like in the middle of breaking. Quite a long conversation with her friend and i'm totally worn out. Manage to endure and soon we went to take bus and sent her home. Quite a tired day...

Sunny Basketball

2007-01-07T02:35:00.000+08:00

It's been years since i ever played basketball under the sun. I done it today in NTU. Played with my brother, cousin and his hall friends. 3 guys and 3 girls. Surprisingly, my brother suffered an injury while marking by one of the girl. A horrible fall as he was kinda trip by the girl and fell to the ground with both hands by the side.. Ouch! damn painful! And since that the girls seem to be just standing still passing the ball and keeping some distance from my brother. As for myself, I did exercised abit and find playing under the hot sun seems so memorable. Used to play under the sun for almost everyday during secondary school time. Overall, it was quite fun. I like the feeling of making great teamwork. I enjoyed passing the ball and making people score. It's an achievement in another way. Played for quite long mixing around our self with the girls to even up. The match of the day comes when my cousin want me to team with the 3 girls. We had an advantage, an extra person but majority are girls. While they are all guys. But still we won! haha.. Frankly speaking, it have alot to do with the girls shooting quite accurately. First moment, i wasn't really sure of how to play with them. I'm not those player that post or even likes to play high post. So tried to grab the rebound after their shot, but they are accurate! Cousin going for attachment and means I'll seldom be playing basketball in school since without a good companion. School going to start tomorrow.. Shall enjoy my last day today! But now is time to catch some sleep! zzZZZ...

Memories

2007-01-04T16:26:00.000+08:00

Memories are good, ain't they?

Is this really true? Yes and No. I do have good memories and bad too. Sometimes i wonder which is more. Good memories are always being remembered while bad appears when you seems to be at the bottom of your luck. Just out of the sudden, i recalled some good and bad ones. Still remembering my toughest time in the army, struggling and missing a girl that i really likes. Good memories of being loved in the past and yet never really cherish that person. Now i do felt being love is better than loving someone. I have been struggling over the past few years and now that the burden is slowly put down, i do feel better with still abit of heartache left. Time will slowly bury all the past.

Remembered the first girl in my mind was actually a girl i know during primary school. She left me a deep impression due to pinching me every now and then. Even once, when the teacher saw my hand full of blue-black and thought i was abused by parents! haha.. Not to mention, she had a great laugh.. me too.. kinda embarrass also. I was rather playful too in the past. A bunch of us even placed a fake cockroach into her letter box. But unfortunately the victim turns out to be her dad.. haha.. Childhood were so carefree and happy.. I miss those days..

Turn into secondary school. I seriously cannot adapt to the change and missed quite alot of lesson during secondary one. Study wise i'm still able to make it to the next stage. Happy-go-lucky style and i decided to change. I work hard and studied, remembering my primary 6 form teacher, Mr Khoo, words.. He told me i'm quite gifted in maths and told me to continue to work hard. I tried and i really hope to tell him i made it. Pretty good score for maths at the end of Secondary School, Best in A- and E-maths in school. That was my peak. I really love the life in secondary. Everyday playing basketball and studying never seems difficult and tough. Not much worries either and having alot of basketball companion. I love basketball. I hate the changing phase. Really hate it. I am not too sure of where i should head after secondary.. Went to studied 2mths in JC and later on appeal to SP Medical Technology.

Studying life science was a wrong move for me. My biology interests never last. And i studied for the sake of getting a diploma i'm not interested in. Spend the 3 years wasted. I believe alot faced the same issue as i did. I regretted and tried to resolve it. Going overseas is my first thought. Expenses is very high but it saves alot of youth and time that guys wasted. And so i decided if i can't get into NTU i will leave. Eventually, i make it to NTU Enviromental Eng. 3years of studies. Half a year gone. I just got to endure and finish it. As for the rest of my life, 2 words for me - Work Hard!

The Queen

2007-01-04T01:33:00.000+08:00

A long day at home. Looking through the notes for next semester. And busy thinking of how to solve my screwed up time table. Make a thorough planning and shall now wait for the add/drop period to make necessary ammendments. Better luck pls!!! Had a few items to get for the next semester - files, textbooks and some stationary. Was also thinking of getting a part time job and work during weekend. Anyone got any lobang???

Until a late notice from Si. She said that she got 2 sneak preview tickets for the show "The Queen" and asked me if i want to watch. Well, the show starts at 730pm at Orchard Cathay and she asked me at around 630pm. Quite rushing ya? Anyway, wasted abit of time deciding and finally agreed to go watch. Went to pick her up at her house and then took a cab there. In the midst, we saw a motorcycle hit onto a car. Biker was an old uncle seems quite pitiful. Hope everything is fine for him. Rain plus slow traffic and so we reached there slightly late. Intothe theatre, all the seats seems to be occupied! Looking carefully and only feft the front few row.. Wow.. No choice sit in front lo.. The show was not a bad one. Showed how the Queen react and manage the press on the death of Princess Diana. Quite a meaningful show. After the show, wanted to take a cab home but she insist on taking bus. Quite a long trip and the bus was simply too cold! for her..haha.. Fortunately, it wasn't raining at Tampines when we reached at her bus stop. Send her home and went home. Smsed my bro to buy me dinner but he replied and say he was already at home! just as i was only outside the door... crap man! Had to have maggi lor.. Good day! At least not rotting the whole day.. haha.. time to go sleep.. goodnight..

31st December 2006

2007-01-01T10:00:00.000+08:00

New year eve!

Went out with a few friends - Meng, Terence, Chyi, Niu. Had dinner with niu and meng at a restaurant near Clarke Quay Mrt. Cream Dory Fish & Chip. Quite nice although i don't really like to eat fish. Sat over there for almost 2hours waiting for Terence. Meanwhile, i was talking crap with niu while meng was busy chatting on the phone. Must be girl man! Talk for damn long.. haha..

Later on we proceeded to the Settlers Cafe. It was the first time there and had quite alot of fun playing games. Board games! haha.. The cafe does not really have great ambiance and lighting or even comfortable cushion chairs. But the people there were friendly and introduced alot of party games. Some pics over at settlers...

Top Left: Terence and Chyi was listening carefully to the explanation of the games

Right: Niu falling asleep! Cut down the long story man!!

Bottom Left: First Picture taken after 12!

Left to Right: 1. Got an idea how to play the egg game 2. Confident, looking at the egg 3. Holding alot of egg!!! haha..

After Jenga, comes JENGA EXTREME!

Above are some games that we took pics of.. Of course, played alot more games that seems more exciting, crazy and fun! Busy playing so never take the pics..haha.. Guess it was a different kind of celebration i ever had. Happy New Year!!

But the first problem of the year came right immediately after we left the cafe. How to go back home?! Traffic damn congested and bus stop extremely crowded! It was around 1am. We tried our luck of taking MRT NE line and was fortunate as the train extend till 1.24am! Wow, a great start for the year..haha.. Some pictures at the MRT station..

Took the train to Sengkang. Had a ice cream treat from Meng at Sengkang 7-11. Together, we walked Chyi home. haha.. fortunate girl ya.. so many bodyguards! After all, we still know our limits.. The three of us waited down stair while Terence had some privacy with her lo..lol.. Took some pics at her house their too..

Top-L: Meng & Niu showing their cool expression..

Top-R: Pic taken too fast! Was trying to cross the same leg as niu! lolx..

Bottom-L: Freezing! Had a big mouthful of ice cream.. ugly shot!

Bottom-R: Exhausted...

Finally, the four of us shared cab home. It was a happy day! Didn't spend much $$$.. haha.. And to be frank, never know playing board games can be so tiring! Once again, Happy New Year everyone! May it be a smooth year for all of us!!!

Out with Cow

2006-12-30T22:00:00.000+08:00

Another day passed. Spend the morning looking at NBA news. Kobe erupted for 58pts but still Lakers lost. Looking forward to greater basketball games from him. Come on!

Today went out with Da Niu. Went to Beach Road to look for his budget canvas shoe. Saw alot of botak and reminds me of army days. Those days going to beach road quite frequently when still a recruit. Quite alot of memories. Memories are always nice, isn't it? Anyway, Niu brought a $39 canvas. Looks pretty not bad and is quite cheap. Walk around and then proceed to Kovan. Waited for him to collect his comics. Quite a long wait ah! Walk here and there, called afew person to chat.. wth..haha.. anyway, i feel quite relax better than staying at home falling sick. haha... From there, we took a bus to Tampines Ikea. Upon alighting, i realised that it was a damn long walk. Walk walk walk... I need a license seriously!!! pray for better luck next TP.. It was my 2nd trip to Ikea. This time round, it was very very crowded. Manage to buy a few boxes for storage. Had my dinner at Tampines mall BK. Guess what's next? here writing blog lor...haha..

Another boring day!

Sick and Tired

2006-12-29T16:06:00.000+08:00

A sunny day.

Finally, i am able to wake up and still see the sun around. haha... Quite a tired day for me. Feeling sick with flu and slight fever. Yet no medication available. Can't believe that i can't even find a pill of panadol at home!!! Anyway, flu will be gone when my immunity build up. haha...

Surfing the net for a rather long period of time. Looking for things to do. Looking at basktball news when iverson scored 44 points and gives his coach 800th wins in his coaching career. Amazing! Looking at some predator cue, damn nice yet damn expensive for a student to afford. Damn! Looking at maple faq and wonder if i should go and level up again today. Perhaps later if i feel better..

Qin called just now and ask me to go watch Curse of the Golden flower. With? Kayan and her bf..haha.. Does not seems to be nice.. so i rejected her..hoho.. so sorry.. wanted to watch that show but not at such environment i guess..haha.. anyway i'm having a virus so i should not spread to other! Noble! haha..

I suppose i shall go take a short break away from the laptop. Time to take a break... :)

Release of Exam Results

2006-12-28T20:59:00.000+08:00

Finally, the most important day of year 2006 have arrived. The day where exam results are released. A nervous, worried mind, blown away as i saw the results. It was quite a big surprise to me as the result was not so bad with the fact that i was not very confident with a few modules. To my surprise, i got As and Bs only. A happy day after so much have happen for the past week. Some update...

Was quite busy earlier on the month. Going back to school for basketball training. However, in the end my hall still lost and never proceed far. It was also a trilling last match, went to overtime and lost by 1 point. haha.. try again next year..haha..

Hoping to go out with si to celebrate christmas but nothing went smoothly. Have some sort of conflict and everything kind of changed. I can only say i'm damn hurt. Anyway, i had some good friends, yumeng and yingxiu that celebrated christmas with me! Still quite fortunate ya.. haha.. For those who care, i would give her up and look for someone who would cherish me!

Looking forward to the arrival of year 2007! hopefully it don't rain so much again!!haha...

Merry Christmas!

2006-12-25T04:37:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas!

This year Christmas was a hard one for me. I was thinking of celebrating with someone but everything went totally off. I was very disappointed. Thought i will be spending the eve at home until Meng asked me out. He push early his date and then kept the night time for me.. what a great buddy! Asked me to ask the girls out but they don't want. And so we went to Parkway parade to buy some present. We shared a t-shirt for Xiu and I brought Si a t-shirt too. After that, we went straight to Sentosa Delifance where Xiu work. The gift was a encouragement for her since she had to work on Christmas Eve..haha.. So nice ah?

The two of us haven't had our dinner yet. Fortunately, Xiu treated us some bread that she made. Wow! Nice! But actually was for her brother one..haha.. opps.. Sorry ah Bro:) Later on, we went to Si house and deliver her a present. Hoping she don't be angry. But she appears to be in a bad mood and ignoring me even though i apologised. Simply went up to her house and leave the present outside her door. Waited for awhile but she never came to open the door. Till then, her parents came back. Quite pai seh. Her dad was saying why she never invite us in.. haha.. Her dad invited us in but we never went in and said we going elsewhere soon so its alright. Should we enter? Cause she was simply angry and even if we went in what should we do.. anyway, we left. Went to geylang area for a supper. Celebrated Christmas in the restaurant. After that, Meng drove Xiu and me home... Merry Christmas! But inside my heart i felt its toring apart... Thanks Xiu and Meng for cheering me up..

Another Day with Increased Knowledge

2006-11-10T01:42:00.000+08:00

Once again another day studying in NTU Lee Wee Nam Library. As early as 7am, i woke up unwillingly just to increase my knowledge. It was a hard one.

Brought a burger and drinks then proceed to the entrance of Mr Lee Library. It was more of a morning shock as i saw damn alot of early "birds" queing outside the doorstep. Kiasu? Hardworking? Crazy?.. Alright typical Singaporean.. Well, i was there also!! haha.. But one big different is i didn't bash in like a bull. Which i eventually regreted. Wake up at that hours and yet i couldn't get place to sit! Horrible!! (Sounds like my Encik). Classified as "mission failed" by my study mates. Next time, got to call for reinforcement.

Went for a few lectures in between and by then Qin got a place for me and hao.. Wow a powerful girl! Of course the next thing is STUDY STUDY STUDY!!! At least i absorbed more today as compared to yesterday when i was completely tired out. More study days to come...... I HATE EXAM!!!!!

Came back hall around 8pm to catch the superstar 2. Funny and entertaining. Got to go sleep lo.. more rest for better brain to fight EXAM!!! GO GO!! Blog again when free... Take care everyone! Goodnight!

Exam Madness!!!

2006-11-09T00:32:00.001+08:00

Hmmm... Quite a long time since i posted the previous blog. Alot of stuff had happen during the past few weeks. Starting from happily celebrating my birthday, to my friend birthday, quiz after quiz and finally exam!!

Thanks everyone who were there celebrating my birthday and those who wished me as well. Seriously had a great time. Thanks man! Alot of quizes just right before exam. That doesn't seem to be a good idea.. Everyone struggling to study. And nevertheless, i realised that there are NO MORE study week already! Up to the last week and some module still yet cover all the lecture material. Trying hard to focus and study as much as possible within the short period. Tedious and of course tiring to the MAX!

Feeling dammmmmmmmn tired today....... Guess i don't get enough of sleep.. 7 hrs of sleep? haha... Woke up at 6am follow by study session in the library till 7pm.. Totally and mentally distorted. Well tommorrow having another round of battle. Guess i got to prepare for it. "Lights off 2230hs!" Well impossible! already over!! haha.. Try to get as much rest as possible..

For the past 2 days, there was special delivery to hall. Have to say it's sweet and touching beardspapa desert..chicken essence.. honey with red dates drink..OMG! My roomie's gf came twice at night to bring food!!! wow.. nice gf ah.. Where's mine?? (shaking my head with dismay)

Seriously, i miss her......:(

Hazy Day

2006-10-07T23:29:00.001+08:00

A day at home studying for coming quiz on Monday. A day where everywhere seems so blur and hazy. A day whereby PSI hit to the top. It was simply a "special day".

I was in the room studying for the whole morning. Rested a while watched some tv show. And saw a small text on the top left hand corner, "PSI=91". Wow when did this starts to appear? Was the weather that bad? Felt abit thristy and went to the kitchen to get a drink. Then i realised that outside was so damn hazy! Was thinking if is another forest fire.. Anyway, now the PSI already reached around 140-150. Guess have to spend some time in the air-con room.

Anyway going back to study now. Blog again when free.. Everyone cover up your nose! Quick! haha.. damn hazy!!

Sunday action

2006-09-25T00:45:00.000+08:00

Its the first Sunday for the term break and guess where am i now? Theoretically i should be at home crossing my leg and having a few gaming session with my brother. However, my hardworking cells urged me to come back hall and prepare for the study session tomorrow.

Sunday started off with me waking up late as usual, around 11am. Watched a couple of Tvb series on channel 55 and played a few match of winning eleven with my bro till he head off to play basketball while i can't play. Went out to walk around, looking around and mean time trying to let my leg exercise abit. Pretty shag.

Meet Ter around 1740hrs and as usual i'm late. Of course i did my part treat him to a meal lor. Brought a couple of stuff back hall; antenna, snacks, medicated oil, shampoo and pi pa kao. yum yum! Reached hall and had a "great" time with the antenna and tv. "Fooling" around with them for almost 2 hours and even broke the "limb" of the antenna. Freaking fragile! Not to mention, there goes my reception! argh!!! Forget about it and i totally give up on the televison. Channel 5, 8 and U never get together..

Had a hair cut today. Quite a short one with horrible side burn. Anyway, today ter accompanied me back hall. Straight away went to play maple story the moment he step in. Never bathe lor. Damn disgusting. haha...

Anyway, latest update on my swollen ankle... It was not as bad as the one i gotten during army time. This time round it seems better and surprisingly i self-medicate myself without the need to visit and sinseh. Hopefully nothing bad is going to happen.. haha.. Anyway looking at this condition and now i am going to get some drinks from the vending machine for ter. haha.. so inhuman right him.. hahaha.. shall stop here. Blog again when free.. Tomorrow got to study.. sian.. but after that go enjoy man!!!

Results of playing with...

2006-09-23T21:32:00.000+08:00

The results of playing basketball with people who aren't sure of how to play, just started or playing with life on the stake is getting injuried. Suppose to enjoy the mid-term break and yet i am down with a sprained ankle. Total diaster.

The tragic happen yesterday. With a couple of friends coming to NTU and play, i was thinking it is great to be playing with some old friends. However to my dismay, the opponent was absolutely hazardous! A total three different opponents and three dangerous hazards.

Got the first injury, a bruise on my knee. With the defender following behind me after dribbling cross him, i jump up for a open layup. Out of the sudden, he run infront of me and we bang onto each other. Was it playing for a prize of thousand dollars? Definately not.

Second hazard, a guy wearing yellow army pt attire. He was the most dangerous guy in the court i can say. Playing illegal screening at all times, running across without thinking, banging onto other without apologising. A pure amateur. While driving into the lane, going for layup or jumping up for a shot, this guy would definately appear out of no where and bang onto me. Pretty dangerous i can say. Hinted him a few but seems no use. Perhaps his friend wanted him to do that (some sort of tactics?). Anyway, never going to drive to the basket with such people around.

Last hazard, a china guy. He is not as dangerous as the previous but he is the one resulting in my fatal injury, sprained ankle. Going for rebound from my back and causes me to land on his footing. However, what can i say about this? There is bound to be contact when playing basketball. Hope i can recover fast to join the inter-hall selection.

Its time to relax and put all the lectures and tutorial aside!! Enjoy break!! uhoo!!

Weird Nick

2006-09-13T00:00:00.000+08:00

Another day had passed. Had a evening full of exercises. Start of with playing basketball with my cousin and a few china men followed by a few km run with my roomie. Can feel the muscle calling for SOS now. Feeling rather hot within my body and all the blood vessel seems enlarged. WOW guess its time to get a couple of days off from sports.

Was msning and doing tutorials earlier on. Out of the sudden, saw a unique nick "I am not a good guy, don't get too near mi", who is that i'm wondering. [click] It was Terence. Hmm.. a few questions immediately pop out: what happen? Him and Chyi got quarrel again? How come put this kind of nick? Not a good guy, what does it mean? etc... Went ahead to ask him and he simply said nothing. Knew him for almost a decade and i believe something is wrong but just he refused to say. Never really press him but just ask him to take care and if he want to tell then tell me. Lastly, he just said that it is hard to say maybe some other time. Anyway, i can guess that it definately have to do with relationship. "Relationship" is really a very complicated. And love may exist this moment and disappear at another moment. Human changes. Sometimes i really wonder does a relationship last? Thinking further, being together now and living together in future is really a totally different thing. Had a primary school friend who is married and already had one child told me that living together need compromise within the couple. She say is not for a short while to endure one habit but is forever. I totally agree with it. Currently, my love is at a died knot. I love and yet not being love or can't be loved.. Complicity?

Reflection for "F"irst Test

2006-09-12T00:08:00.000+08:00

Bad start for the semester. First test was a total diaster. Everything went so wrong despite studying so hard. Or was it not enough effort put in? or was it stupid? or careless? All sort of reason finding for myself after the test. I did studied and yet it went completely off. I don't want to think about it and wish i won't have such incident happening again. I really hope so...

A day of reflection. The test grade was passed around in the class and from far what i saw was a paper full of highlight. What does it means? As it gets nearer and nearer, i had a close look at it.. To my surprise, the highlighted names is those who failed.. Almost all failed except a handful got good results. And i gotten a "F". F for First test? haha.. It was a horrible feeling at that moment. The lecturer went through the test question and it was so simple yet many failed. What does it reflect? Not paying attention during lecture? lecturer not imparting his knowledge well enough to us? or was it we can't think and do the type of question that we never encounter before during tutorial? Finally, i concluded and i can blame myself for not understanding the subject well enough. To even demoralise us, the lecturer mention that he marked it very leniently. He says, "To those who gotten "D", don't be too please. I marked it very leniently. You may not have anything correct but i still give you D.". Such a nice lecturer ah? haha..

Work hard for better grade!!

Tue..s..day

2006-08-29T23:20:00.000+08:00

It's already been 4weeks of school. Missed another morning lecture as i was too tired to wake up in the morning. Slept at around 2 am in the morning, struggling with another tutorial. Seems like it is like a routine already. Received a message from Terence in the morning, as it read something like this,"Hey guys, later 1130 wanna meet at cant a for lunch? Reach first go and booked place k.. ard 7-8 places..". Was wondering who is he asking? got so many place to seat during peak hour ma?..

Anyway, still went to met hms and his gang together with Zhi Wei for lunch. Had a heavy breakfast of sup, bread and just couldn't finish the lunch. Had a talk with Zhi Wei also. Sounds like everyone is struggling. haha.. However, he only had 13 au this semester! wth!! Exempted 2 modules.. But think through it, i was exempted a year..haha.. So this sort of minimised the envious. As i expected, no seats available for such huge group and had to takeaway to N2 there for lunch. Short lunch fellow by doing my lab report while Terence and his gang continue with their discussion. Noticed that Yingxiu wasn't seems to be in a good mood. Wondering why? as Terence and Jie wei asked another girl, friend of her, but she refuse to comment. However, today learned that i better bring along a earpiece as it is not very good to on the music so loud like other people did. Learned my mistake. Tomorrow had another driving lesson. Guess next time i will just learn during weekend and leave the free time on wed for study or some recreation.

Feeling quite tired as they're too much things to do within a short time.. Tired, anyone to motivate me?....

For You, Buddy..

2006-08-29T20:56:00.000+08:00

Was suppose to post this blog few days back but due to some work it was not posted until today. This is written for my best ever friend, Yumeng. He is indeed my best buddy. I knew him during the secondary 3. Wasn't really close to him as we don't share much hobby. Like i use to play alot of basketball during secondary while he don't really know how to play. However, still we end up being a great pal. Perhap one incident makes us quite close.. It was during one of the inter class basketball match where i shouted, "Yumeng!" and passed the ball fast across to him. It went straight to his head and rebound back to Terence. After we won the match and i realised Meng actually nose bleeded due to that. Was rather guilty for that. This marks the start of our friendship..

Ever since then, Meng always nose bleed out of nothing. Guess i play a major part of the causes. After "O" level, we went looking for job together with Terence. Although worked in the same company but different location, still maintain contact. Always remember the days where the three of us went up to a building at boat quay there talking about life. It was a great moment especially being with these great buddy. After sometime, Terence gotten a girlfriend and left with me and Meng. Usually 2 of us will go out instead of the usual 3. Playing pool, billiard, ktv, swim, jogging, basketball, watching movie, hanging around... Even when i was moving to hall, he drive me here and there. I'm really glad to have such a great friend. However, i'm really sorry buddy for not being there when you are feeling down. I know alot of stuff kept coming and you must really felt pressurized and down. Your friend passed away and followed by your grandmother. Frankly, when i heard that from you, i don't know what should i say to console you. Just hope you be strong and slowly let everything go.. Don't know what i can really do for you but if you need me for sure i will be there.. friend came only once a lifetime and not to mention we're the best buddy! Anyway, i hope you can get over this and continue with your life ah.. Be strong and determine, everything can be done! Good luck buddy!

Inter Block Games, Day 2

2006-08-22T22:22:00.000+08:00

A tired Tuesday started with missing the first lecture. I was really tired out due to the game yesterday. It has been such a long time since i ever play a 5-on-5. It was hell tired. Having alot of cramp at the thigh all day long. I am really getting weak, no longer a IPPT gold. Yet today i still participated in the inter block games, road relay. Everyone who participated seems so good and i just don't feel in a good condition to participate...

As time passes and the game was about to start. Our team was consider quite a strong one with everyone running rather fast, mostly gold timing in IPPT. WOW! We started off with one of the two fastest in our team, follow by another guy, then me, another guy and then my roomie, Dawen. Must be wondering why i kept saying "another guy"? It's because that's the only name i can think for them. Anyway, we started good with the first runner coming back first. The second runner started pretty fast but ended up losing his strength during the last stretch and came back second. Damn it.. I was the next runner! Fortunately, i was able to catch up with the guy infront and provide some space for the 4th runner. The track was quite tough with alot of slope and not to mention some sharp bend. Really had a tough time going up the long gradual slope before passing to the next person. The 4th guy maintained the advantage and passed to Dawen. Dawen was fast. Take his home sweet time in the front part, slowly taking the rubber band (aka baton). However, our team still finish first. Yeah! Brought some glory to our hall and room 1056! haha.. Right after our session is the girls' relay. The biggest upset of the day was our block got not enough girs representative. Overall, we lost the first place to block 56. Hopefully, we'll do better the next time!

Weekend ended follow by Inter Block Game, Basketball.

2006-08-22T01:47:00.000+08:00

Today was a day full of lectures. Wonder how did I manage to survive all the lecture and tutorials. Been feeling the Monday blues and of course just don't feel like starting the week with such a pack day. Afterall, it's just a return from a weekend. Weekend wasn't a really great one. Plenty of time spend on resting, dazing and dreaming. Lecture notes and tutorials just stack up on the desk. I really can't get down in completing them. Feel so tired.

Sun was a busy day for me. Actually mistaken the time for driving lesson. Thought it was suppose to be 0700hrs and ended up to be 1900hrs. Freaking hell! Woke up at 0545hrs for nothing. From ubi, took a 2hrs bus trip to school and charged my macbook. Quite not use to the Mac Os system. Anyway that day was really in a rush for time.. Meet Jia Bao at City Hall to take a disc then went to funan it look around and finally rush back to ubi for the driving lesson. It's a lesson that I would never do again I guess. I actually drove from ubi to dover mrt station. And the most interesting thing is that I never took the expressway road! It was a drive with rather high speed I ever gotten.. 80-90km/h.. Reached Dover Mrt and went back to campus.

Today was also the Inter-block games, basketball, for hall 11. It was a long game indeed. Waiting time is extremely long. Played 2 matches, won the first match and lost the final match. It was a great feeling to play with some excellent players. Hasn't been feeling the love for basketball. After the lost, there was this urge to really train hard and get better. Used to be a sharpshooter last time and yet today was totally different. Shot fall short, air ball and all sort of misses. Really hate that. Was actually quite determine to trying win the other team in the final. It was a tough one, facing opponent bigger in size and with team mates not knowing where to go. Had some opportunity to score but I just failed due to fatigue and cramp. It was quite embarrass to miss an open layup. Quite disappointed by my performance. Anyway on the other hand, it was proud of us to emerge as the female champ in hall 11. Way to go blk 54! Alright, going back to my tutorials.. blog again when free.. goodnight..

Arriving Weekend

2006-08-19T00:42:00.000+08:00

Finally it marks the end of second week of school. Quite tough and fast. Spent alot of time reading up, revising and doing tutorials. It is a week of full of hardship. Not much time for recreation and relaxing. Everyday seems like a battle of learning.

Recently i have also meet up with my secondary form teacher, Mr Mohd Azman, together with Terence. Glad to see him at NTU. Just like us, he is pursuing his Master Degree in Education, majoring in sciences. Talked to him quite awhile before he head to his tutorial. His encouragement somehow enlightened me and kept me going. He thought me that uni life should not be totally studying as we should balance our life and participate in more activities to gain more in other aspect. I will always remember this words.

Alright, tomorrow is the long awaiting weekend and i decided to do somemore revision in order to catch up with the studies. Nevertheless, yesterday i just placed my name in some inter block games (IBG) of hall 11. Other than basketball, i followed my roomie, Dawen, in joining badminton and road relay. Hopefully can win some games! haha.. Time to go sleep.. blog again when free.. Goodnight!

Second Home

2006-08-15T00:21:00.000+08:00

No more reveille 0515..
No more COS..
No more extra..
No more encik gather!

More notes..
More lecture..
More tutorial..
More dead brain cells!

Leading a new life at NTU. Quite similar to NS camp except that i do not need to travel in and out by fastcraft (ferry). However, over here they used shuttle bus. haha.. Daily routine for Monday to Friday was already pre-planned; reveille, breakfast, classes, lunch, classes, dinner, hostel, study, sleep... and it continues.. Indeed army have makes me forgotten of the previous 15yrs of studies. Isn't it incredible? Long time of shouting at recruits and lecturing people during army days while now having lectures and listening to people teachings. Its been 1 week plus of uni life. So far, it was still quite tough adapting to the fast pace of learning. Not to mention having alot of revision work to be done other than absorbing the new stuff. Believe i have really lost touch with maths. Use to top in the school and even in poly i will score distinction for mathematics subjects. Now, i need more time to really understand what the hell is going on. Its really tough, tough, tough!!!

Anyway, above are some pictures of my new house..my bed, desk and of course my green school bag.. haha.. The environment is not as good as i expect. But is still better than in some of the SAF camp that i accomodate before. Most of my stuff seems like green, brown.. looks like army colour huh.. Have i really forgotten about army? haha.. Army life is tough and no freedom but as you goes more experience, things get better and you will start to work more effectively. Whereas, studying is damn stressful and you have plenty of freedom but NO TIME FOR IT! But still have to work for a degree to have a better future and livings. Alright, going to sleep liao.. tml got lecture at 830hrs man! Goodnight everyone!

Friends?

2006-08-13T03:44:00.000+08:00

It is 3plus am now. Yesterday or maybe just now went to catch a glimpse of the france display fireworks at Esplanade with Terence, Chyi, Xiu and Bao ge. It was as usual squeezy like hell with people keep pushing your back and roughing to get through. Everyone seems to be so anxious or is it so call "kiasu"? Already at 6pm, City Hall was flooded with people. It is nearly impossible to get a million dollar seats near the railing outside Esplanade, unless you could come around noon time. haha.. Human have natural instinct which is so unbelievable. With the time showing at 8.50pm, you can start to see those people sitting down getting up and rushing to the front. Push and push and push.. I was having quite a good view but a lady asked me if i could let this small girl go to the front to view the fireworks as she was simply too short.. Of course i let her pass and so everyone start to rush through as well and later i find myself just behind a tree! Suggest that there should be a place for children to view the works lor.. Fortunately, people in front of me wasn't too tall and i was still able to have a small view of the display. It was a worthwhie one. The fireworks is simply better than the previous fews, the glittering of the dust and the great impact together forming a heavenly scene. It was fantastic! A few blink of my eyes after the fireworks and i realised most of the people in front have already rushing out! They got the best sits and leave the earliest.. wow.. typical Singaporean!! (applause) Slowly, we make our way out and proceed to the bus stop. I took a bus to PS while the rest of them went home.

I was feeling quite moodless and thinking of alot of things. Out of a sudden, I find myself changed over the years. I use to be a quiet guy that won't bother to communicate and interact with others. Now that i guess i've become a talkative and full of lame jokes person. It seems like i feel arkward with the atmosphere being too quiet. Started to talk and entertaining other by joking or perhaps accidentally making fun of them. I changed - sociable/irritating. Walking alone along Orchard road, i felt so lonely and friendless. Best friends seems to be drifting away, like Terence and Yumeng. Can't understand what they are thinking already or maybe they can't understand me either? past close friends like andy, jasline aren't contacting with me as much as the past. Everything around me changed. I just feel weird and helpless.

Alright blog another time.. hope when i wake up everything will be fine..

Back to blogging!

2006-08-13T03:27:00.000+08:00

Hmm..when was the last time i posted a blog? ha..

it's been quite sometimes since my last blog.. So much things to say yet i don't know where should i begin...

Of course, i'll start with the happiest thing of all; I have disrupted loh!!! yeah!!! Now begining a new chapter of my life at NTU. Living in hall, learning new stuff and trying to make more friends! However, things will never be perfect.. I'm really happy to leave the army and being a civilian again but once again i really miss those camp mates.. fir, melvin, zam, she, zeng, fak, hafiz, osman, fayyaz n many.. i miss the days in camp; the chiong sua days with buddy, instructor days working with alot of great fellow commander, kana fish together, running together along the costal road, sharing about life and not to mention being united as a Viper company! Wish those guys in camp all the best in camp and after they ord! Those memories will always be in my heart...

Now back to uni life. Quite similar to poly indeed with the exception that no one cares if u attend lecture or tutorial. Everything is more independent. Lecturers seem to be very friendly and approachable, making us learning in a better environment. First week just passed and lesson seems so much to catch up and absorbing at my maximum pace. Hasn't really get to know the course mate as lectures are always in a large group. Hopefully this coming week with same tutorial groups can get to know few more friends. Hall living somehow seems so bored. With nothing much to do but only surfing on my laptop, listening to music and watching television. Seriously, i feel abit regretted for not joining the freshmen hall camp. Seems like i miss alot of fun and chances to meet some great people. Anyway i shall wait for another chance to come.. haha..

Past Few Days...

2006-05-05T21:02:00.000+08:00

Just to update my past few weeks.. Last day of field camp had a BIC (battle inoculation crawl) and injuried my elbow with a superficial wound. kinda digusting..haha.. see below..

My last ptp batch crawl aka "ord crawl"..haha

Nevertheless, Monday was labour day and went to cathay cineplex to catch a movie with a ex-colleague. Reached ps bypass the istana and saw is open for public! haha..

so we went in to kapo awhile.. such a big place and quiet.. long walking path to inside.. was not prepared to go their so never bring a camera. Used my phone to take a pic..haha.. the pic showing a crest in the istana building.

After some sight viewing inside, we walked to the cathay cineplex just beside ps. Fortunately, we went off early enough to escape a big rain. However, the show we're watching was rather late and end up still stuck at the cineplex. Went to buy a umbrella and then proceed to ps for our dinner. Watched the "aquamarine". Erm.. so-so.. as is not my suggestion..haha.. Anyway, the show is not too bad la.. had a couple of good laugh.. after everything, i went back home and book in lo.. a short week, 4days in camp and i booked out this morning as i gotten mc for 2days.. Tomorrow is election day.. shall see who to vote and make my vote a sacred one! haha.. By the way in NBA, Kobe scored 50 pts today but Lakers still lost to Suns. What the hell going to game 7!!

Meet Up With Jas..

2006-04-16T21:21:00.000+08:00

Morning went to swim with Meng. Damn cold and alot of people. Sian.. Swim for quite awhile and went back home. So tired that i doze off. Terence called me a few times and i was still sleeping. Suppose to meet him and Jasline at 1200hrs. haha.. end up i woke up at 12oohrs when Terence called my house. Met them around 1300hrs. So sorry as i was really too tired. Anyway, after i met them went to have a bite. Actually should be they accompany me to eat as they already ate by the time i reach. haha.. After eating, went around walk browsing, looking for Qin's birthday present. As it was still quite early and Xiu only joining us at 1600hrs, we went to Marina kbox to realx abit. Sing alot and had alot of fun. Xiu came and joined in but was discover by the kbox people and had to paid even she came so late..haha.. suay.. But end up Terence treated us! Wow anyway officer pay la..haha..After the ktv session, went to buy Qin present and then have dinner with Xiu and Terence at a foodcourt. Jasline went off early for her steamboat big feast! haha.. Anyway had a good day although abit tiring la.. Some pictures below taken today.. gtg le book in time.. Sad sad.. Cya Everyone! btw help me update my tagboard also ah!!! haha..

Brainstorming

2006-04-05T20:33:00.000+08:00

Night off today. Booked out in the evening and hit into a heavy rain. The rain was so heavy that i could not go home first. Went to Tampines mall and walk around before heading home when the rain gets smaller. Going to book in later. Guess my platoon now is doing physical training while i'm at home slacking! haha.. Time for me to rest awhile.. Anyway, uploaded some pictures..

A picture of a spectacles, a messy table and water bottle that hydrate me everytime during PT. haha..

A purple colour spectacle worn by someone i miss most...

A water bottle that kept me going during PT...

A place i have been at for most of the time other than my home...

Recently heard from Terence that he is going to ntu to study after ns.. haha.. Guess for me will be very much different. Expecting a rejection letter from ntu lo..haha.. Still got no idea what i want to do after ns. Brainstorming and still can't figure it out... shall continue thinking and see how.. praying for a answer..hoho.. shall write till here.. take care!

Half Day Off

2006-03-29T20:04:00.000+08:00

Took a half day off today. This morning just heard from some of my malay friends that a sergeant from my batch just passed away in the early morning. It was quite shocking when i heard he fall off from the window. This is life.. You won't know what will happen the next moment so cherish every moment you have... Rest in peace friend...

This afternoon i went to the army shop at tampines Blk 801. Went to sew on the Singapore tag on my uniform. It was so "lucky" of me that the shop which open from mon to sun 10am-10pm was closed!!! What the hell!!! In the end, i asked my mum and fortunately there was sewing service at Tampines mall there. Horever, the pricing was rather steep. My friend sewed their uniform in camp each tag on each uniform cost $0.80. I sewed for $6 despite the auntie gave me a $2 off!!haha.. can't imagine actual price is $8! Anyway, i was very please with the service. The auntie was very friendly. Collected the uniform le.. Going to book in later.. Blog again when i'm back.. Cya!

Long Weekend!

2006-03-25T12:52:00.000+08:00

Just completed ATP yesterday. Had a day and night live shooting using the M16 rifle. Was rather not use to the posture as has been a long time since my last live firing. Day shoot was not as good as the night one due to the snap target. Anyway, at the end i manage to pass the whole thing and rushing to book out..haha.. reached home at 2345hrs. Check my mail, chat with a couple of friend in msn for awhile and went to sleep.

Now watching the NBA @ ESPN, LA Lakers VS Milwaukee Bucks. Kobe is damn good! had alot of 3pts from beyond the arc. haha.. Everyone in the team is playing well. If this continue, they might have a chance in the trophy? haha.. Having a long weekend this book out. Will be booking in tomorrow night. Wonder what i am going to do today?.. Long time never went out. Most of this month been busy in camp or at home. Finally these two days can relax abit. Guess tomorrow going to play basketball with my cousin. Shall go and think about where to go today.. blog again when i'm back then.. Everyone enjoy!

Mum's ok.. Let it go..

2006-03-22T12:07:00.000+08:00

Sometimes things just won't goes the way you hope for. Finally, my mum is ok now. She seems slightly affected by the medication but believe she will get better with our support! This problem is over but kind of facing another problems. Hasn't been talking to si for the past few days. It's kinda sick and tired waiting and waiting aimlessly.. Although an answer has already been given to me long ago, i am still being so stubborn. She had already make it clear to me that SHE WILL NOT BREAK UP WITH HER BF! so why am i still waiting for? PLS WAKE UP MY STUPID IDEA! if i really loves her, i should let go as it will do her and me good.. Time will wash off everything about her.. Time to REALLY let go of her and carry on with my life... ... ... ... ...

Lost

2006-03-09T20:58:00.000+08:00

So many things had happen during this few days. Frankly speaking, I was very stress and lost. I feel helpless and there's nothing i can think of to help the situation. Somehow, i can only pray hard for miracles to happen. I really hope one sleep and the next day everything will be back to normal... Is there anyone i can relies one? i'm very lost and tired...

Mum Hospitalised

2006-03-04T23:44:00.000+08:00

Yesterday during mid-way of 24km route march, i received a message from my brother that wrote "mum at hospital". Was very surprise and shock to see that. Quite lost and wonder what should i do next. Called my brother and he said that mum was hospitalised the day before. But why am i informed so late?! I wonder why... Anyway, heard from dad is because of her chest tightness and pain. This morning received a call from hospital and said mum can be discharged. I was told to be there by 2pm. Went to CGH with my brother and fetch my mum back. Prepared food for her and let her had her medication. Seeing her asleep and i went out to meet terence. Passed him my black airborne bag for his ROC trip. Wish him good luck and have a smooth journey! Guess won't be able to send him off as i had a appointment at CGH 1220hrs. Take Care Pal!

Final Destination 3

2006-03-01T13:26:00.000+08:00

Yesterday watched Final Destination 3. Quite a nice show but too much violence scene le. All the characters death were more horrible than the previous two. Personally, i find it not horrify at all. To certain extent, i actually find it lame..haha.. For those who haven't watch the show might want to catch it but have to be able to endure the violence scene. Today going to book in at 2100 hrs at Pasir Interchange. Quite tired everytime book in. Since she left, i've been kind of distracted with whatever i do. Scare if i carry on this, alot of extra will be awaiting for me. Think i should wake up le.. Be realistic, "over is over!", and carry my own life over here. Afterall, she got friends over there to accompany her and i shouldn't be so worry about her. Wish her all the best and hope she can take good care of her health especially. Take care everyone, blog again when i'm back.. Byeee!

Byebye Girl

2006-02-22T18:05:00.000+08:00

Woke up very early today and also didn't sleep well yesterday night. Was thinking of her all night long. And again she's going to leave. I really miss her... Woke up in the morning and gave her a morning call. Lazy pig everytime ask for more time..haha.. Called another few more times and finally she wake up. She said she wasn't prepare to leave.. haven't shou shi hao xing qing.. me too can't bear to see her leave.. sad sad sad..

Meet her and her friends, yuling, Ah Guang, Hongyi and Gerard. Like a half a year gathering, as me, ah guang and hongyi went to send her off 6 months ago..haha.. Some pictures taken at airport.. Unlike the previous time that i wait till the plane fly off, this time round i went off after seeing her went in cause she ask me to send yuling home. Really really miss her alot..... After i send yuling home, went back to catch some sleep and setted my alarm at 1600hrs (waiting for her sms). However, the sms never came and was quite worried so called her and she just stepin her house due to plane delayed and over crowded in the immigration. Anyway, she safely reached home i'm relieve le.. Now another problem! is her internet wireless connection not working! aiyo don't know why either.. wireless modem working but cannot detect the wireless network.. weird.. Now she is having a rest. But she hasn't ate her dinner, wonder what she going to eat..haiz.. always don't take care one despite me saying alot alot of times already.. Later going back camp le.. this weekend might be burn due to re-sit test as i miss the sit test camp..so sian lo.. Gotta prepare for going back camp le.. feeling quite low now.. really miss you girl..... love you always......gtg le..

Eve Of The Flight

2006-02-21T22:06:00.000+08:00

Today was on off to meet si. She is leaving once again to Perth. Another sad moment for me. Today went out with her and gl. Went to sing ktv followed by a movie, i'm not stupid too. Didn't sing much today as i would want to hear her sing rather than i sing. haha.. but was force by her to sing. Naughty girl! Watched i'm not stupid too.. A lame show but was rather touching too.. alot of people surrounding us cried! Oh my god.. haha but i was also touched by some of the scene.. overall a great show expect for the kid that become fighting champion.. LAME! After that send si home to collect cd for her SIA colleagues and went back to tm and then walk her home again. haha.. of course she complained walking her and there.. so freakling hell..haha.. But for me was happy to have slightly more time with her..haha.. Gave her the present i brought too.. what is it? haha.. was quite surprise by the long wallet she used today.. somehow she never use the old FAT WALLET..oh then the present i brought seems useless le.. hmmm.. Anyway hope she like it ba.. Hope she enjoyed herself today as she was rather moody for the past few days i guess. Although i do not know what exactly happen but she just seems quite moody. Heard her telling me her mum not happy wonder is it about that? or maybe quarrelled with bf? anyway i just hope she will be happy.. My listening ear is always at her service.. Take care girl.. i will miss you alot.. love you..

Constant Gardener

2006-02-19T01:58:00.000+08:00

Watched another sad movie today with Wei Ching. Story was quite sad as it talks about life in Africa. People there being used as guinea pig for testing medicine. What most ridiculous is the pharmacutical company take it as giving public free testing of HIV and TB while actually using them to test medicine! Where is the HUMAN RIGHTS! A lady tried to uncover the truth but was killed in the end. Her husband continued her wish and end up being killed also. However, his death uncovered the truth. In real life such things might be happening to Africa. Thus, all of us have to cherish our life and environment. Being able to live in Singapore, such good environment is really a blessing. After the show, went to meet Terence for a pool session. Never bring my own cue abit lost form.. haha.. pushing the blame to the cue ah.. Anyway had a great time as long time hasn't played. Tomorrow thought of going play basketball. Only worries is re-injuried my finger again..haha.. shall see how.. Tml morning watching NBA all star Saturday. After that gotta book in at around 1730 lo.. sian ah.. Si laving on 22nd also. Asked my OC to see if tue and wed can take off. And i was GRANTED! yeah! hope she's free, and not last minute meeting other again.. pray hard then. shall end here.. going to lights off liao.. Goodnight everyone!

FIELD CAMP ENDED, BOOK OUT LO!

2006-02-17T23:58:00.001+08:00

Finally field camp ended and today booked out. Had been in camp for the past few weeks. Quite tiring during field camp as everyday had to wake up early and sleep late. Worse still, have to sleep in out field! However, thanks to the rumours regarding release of 'A' Level results on today, field camp was cut short to 6 days! YEAH! Anyway, still got few major event upcoming.. SIT test, Range and Hand grenade live throw.. Going to busy 2 weeks.. Sian.. Yesterday was doing my duty and got screwed up in the ration indent for recruits. They are suppose to have combat ration rather than fresh for dinner. But thanks to my PS, who brought them to eat resulting in over eat or rather say never indent but we eat! 0 indent but ate 53!! What the hell! End up have to write one statement to my CSM and kana scold by him. So suay! Hopefully the next few weeks will be good for me. Hope luck will change for me.. Too many injuries and thing occupying in my mind.. can't really concentrate in NS.

She will be leaving on 22nd Feb. Today just asked my PC to help me and he did so. Should be able to book out on 22nd Feb but not too sure if i want to or not. Went to send her the previous time and was rather sad but she didn't really talk to me either, like being left out. haha.. Shall see how.. enjoy my week end lo!!!

Nights Off

2006-02-09T19:54:00.000+08:00

Yeah! Night off today.. Later going back camp. This saturday will the start of field camp. Was quite lucky as 'A' level result will be out on Friday. Thus, fieldcamp is cut short to 6 days. haha.. Alot of things for today.. Caroline went to Sydney to pursue her degree le.. Wish her all the best and good luck ya! And also today is Wei Ching's 21st birthday.. Happy Brithday ya!! Quite a relax day today. Now at home checking email, writing this blog lo.. Nothing much to say le.. write again when i'm back.. Have a good weekend everyone! I'LL BE AT FIELD CAMP!!HAHA..

Fearless

2006-02-07T14:08:00.000+08:00

Booked out yesterday night and met Wei Ching for a show. Went to watch Fearless. A nice and touching show showing how Jet lee sacrificed his life for wushu unity. WC cried somemore! Stun.. haha.. Anyway, thanks for her accompanied lo.. After that, sent her home and rush back Tampines and borrowed the advance theory book from Yingsi. Today took my advance theory and failed.. sian sian sian!!! Anyway, booked another date to try again. Due to the movie show, i didn't study much lor. Guess before the test start going to study few days earlier. Just now went to return yingsi her advance theory book too and brought her some food. Where got ppl morning breakfast eat maggi mee!! so unhealthy! Still don't take care of herself lor.. and even injuried herself... haiz.. Bruise here and there.. hope you'll get well soon ah! girl girl pls take care ah.. write till here.. going to CGH for another physio and check on the fractured bruise finger.. tired day.. take care everyone! especially you lor girl...

Life Is Like A Dream..

2006-02-02T14:40:00.000+08:00

Just change my entire blog. A new start. Time for me to wake up my stupid and foolish idea. Be more realistic and move carry on my own life. Stop wasting time on someone whom i might love her so much but she don't trust me...

Yesterday, had a small gathering with caroline,
chyi lin, xiu and ah teck. Is sort of a farewell
dinner for caroline as she is leaving Singapore to
Sydney to pusring her degree. Wish her all the best!
Some pictures taken during the dinner @DOME.
One funny thing is why i never took pic with them??haha...

Suppose to meet Weiching for a movie show also but due to the gathering, was rather late le.. end up flying her aeroplane just like what she did few days back..haha.. But really appreciate that she willing to accompany me during 3rd day of CNY as no one was around! Thank you girl for the effort although end up flying me plane..haha.. Luckily that day Terence and his bro asked me to play pool.. Wow his bro pro sia.. Had a great game! Asked yingsi for a show but she never really reply me or if got was damn slow.. that was a very bored day for me..

Had a quarrel with yingsi for no reason..haha.. Because yumeng never tell me who he's with and never tell her.. she angry with both of us.. ridiculous right? Its ok, can't be bother anymore since she just don't trust me.. Was at a 24hr mac with yumeng yesterday after he done with gl and came to send yingxiu and me home. Talk with him for quite long, most of the time was me--> grumbling.. Think back alot about me and yingsi... Sending her home during a big rain and i was all drench while her bottom pants was wet, scolded by her..haha.. She wasn't feeling well while working at tm starhub, i immediately rush down and accompany her to doctor.. guess she got serious menstrual cramp... While working at PS starhub, her colleague accidentally poked her eyes. I was working at Centrepoint and asked my boss for early dinner to bring her to doctor. Ran from centrepoint to PS and saw her dropping tears. Quickly bring her to medical facilities but damn it orchard so hard to find one!! end up being scolded and took cab with her and send her home.. as for me applied urgent leave.. Still remember when she went to australia, almost called her everyday during the first few month. Brought alot of world card..haha..Help her in her work when i was feeling very tired.. heard she don't have much jacket, quickly went to get some and send to australia for her.. stupid for whom am i to her? Shall keep all this memories in the past and move forward without her.. Let time wash off my saddness.. Take care Si..

Belated Birthday Present!

2006-01-29T09:13:00.000+08:00

Finally received my belated birthday present from si.. haha.. It was a wallet. I like it alot, she wrapped it very nicely also. Quite surprising that it was wrapped so nicely.. Thought she might have find herself too lazy to do all that.. Really appreciate what she done.. THANKS GIRL!

That day i went to meet si after i booked out at around evening time. Met her at Tampines mall NTUC. After that was ran out of ideas where to go. Previously, Meng replied me that he and gl was at Tampines already. So i told si and see if she want to meet them. Seems like she don't want to be glossberry. haha.. Anyway, we met them. Meng said he gotta go collect orange at bukit batok and need to take his leave. WAO! so strange ah..haha.. Anyway after that left with me, si and gl. We went to Yakun to have some drink. And they asked me to unwrap the present. I hesitated as i was eating bread.. DON'T WANT TO DIRTY THE PRESENT AH!! end up was force to open up the present. Already predicted it is a wallet by looking at the packaging.

Saw the present was a renoma wallet with single flap and coin pouch. haha.. Seriously i like it.. but will prefer if it has no flap and coin. Si asked me for my old wallet and she saw it has no flap and no coin pouch..haha.. She told gl that i don't like wallet with flaps and coin pouch.. was half true la.. i use to have wallet with that too but find it too bulky. But compare to si's one still manageable..haha.. Anyway, really like the present she gave.. i will take good care of it..

Another Day

2006-01-24T00:57:00.000+08:00

Just hang up with Si and now writing this blog. Another day she slept so late.. Really worried about her.. Kept saying her eyes itchy and even swollen this morning.. should have brought her to a doctor liao.. But tomorrow can't take off and also this week alot of duty guess can't accompany her le.. hope she'll be fine.......

This morning went to CGH for another session of therapy followed by review by the specialist doctor. He mentioned that my hand is recovering but the wound still not fully healed and must avoid strenuous activities. Guess still need quite some time to fully recover. After the medical appointment was rather late.. ard 1300 hrs already so decided to take half day off. Called Si after my appt but no one answer. Call a few times and still no one pick up.. thought she might have went home and is sleeping as she wasn't feeling well in the morning. However, the fact is that she didn't heard the phone ringing and didn't saw and miss call. She called me when she was in the toilet.. said that not too convenient to call me with the lecturer around..haha so funny.. anyway she told me she'll be meeting gl later and asked if i want to come along.. met them at TM isetan and accompanied them walk around.. Gl brought quite a few clothes while Si brought one jacket.. She really looks nice on it.. i touch my heart and say that.. really.. but somehow she feels that she will regret buying the clothes..haha cute girl..SI U LOOKS GREAT, FABULOUS, GORGEOUS WEARING IT! so don't worry okie.. went around walking and looking at bags.. we kept walking around the bag section as gl can't decide whether to buy the guess bag or not.. haha.. personally i find that bag is like for a one time usage only..haha.. anyway up to gl to decide la.. Heard that Si wanted to buy one bag also.. but dunno which one.. maybe is the braun buffel one i guess.. go and buy for her aft i book out on friday.. she's down with dry cough lor.. haiz really fang xing bu liao ta.. dunno how to take care of herself.. everytime cannot tahan le also say never mnd..some times want to angry with her, see she so tired also won't want liao.. just like today when sending her home, she looks quite pale and lips so dry. She told me she was very tired and going to faint liao.. aiyo girl girl ah.. please think about yourself in future okie.. shall write till here ba.. getting late liao.. tml morning booking in.. going to miss Si le.. CHARLOTTE..haha.. miss u girl.. love you too.. goodnight..

Holiday! Oso Book In Day!!!...

2006-01-10T19:38:00.000+08:00

Had been raining for almost everyday this month.. So sickening.. Going to booking soon.. Today never done much thing also. Went out with my brother to purchase hp. He brought a motorola handset while i didn't get one as the one i wanted is out of stock! so suay.. haha.. maybe few weeks later after i nook out then go and purchase ba.. After that, i went to meet terence for another pool session. Quite tired today.. Eyes feeling quite irritated and can't see clearly. Played quite lousy too.. sian.. Was suppose to meet jasline today but she felt lazy to come out as it was raining. haha.. lazy girl!!! Anyway, she told me see when i can take off then tell. If it happen to be on weekdays, she said she going to take leave or mc..hahaha.. Shall see how.. most probably will be busy. Next book out was so long away!! 21st ah.. By then, got to shop of CNY stuff lo if not also don't know when to. Today, also thought of meeting Si. But i always got this feeling that i sure won't be able to meet her. Guess everytime i will have to see if she is free first. See if she is meeting anyone or anyone has asked her out. Even if now i ask her out in advance for next month, guess she will say see how and ended up by then she won't be free. haha.. wonder why other people can ask her out in advance while whenever i ask will never succeed.. WHY? Can anyone tell me?? Shall not think so much liao, don't have much time also left. Alot of weekends going to be burn for this month and also next month. Hope work and tiredness will let me forget all these... got to go.. book in lo.. take care si..

Book Out

2006-01-10T01:08:00.000+08:00

Today just book out at night and meet Terence for dinner at Tampines Mall. Went to play pool again. haha.. Find the pocket of 8ft pool table so big and was so easy to play.hoho.. Went home after the game and was quite late, 0000hrs. Unfortunately, tomorrow going to book in again. And this time round going to be confine for another wkend before the next book out which is on the 21st Jan 2006. What a long time to go!!! Good news is that can still come out for some nights out and might be able to clear off if do not require so much people around. Hopefully got time to meet her lo.. Really miss si.. Thinking that she's going to leave soon felt quite sad although she has been away for past few months. I'm still not use to it and really miss her. Recently she fallen sick, down with flu and refused to eat medicine.. Quite worried but just can't book out to see her. Hope she be good and take medicine when required lo.. Sick le better see doctor la.. pray that she'll be fine and get well soon.. miss ya sweety..

The "Last" Day

2006-01-05T01:59:00.000+08:00

Called this the "Last" day as it is the last day before going back camp to teach the monsters. Had a simple day. Back in camp during noon time for a briefing my OC, who is going to be posted out. After the briefing, had nothing else to do and booked out at around 4pm.

Was thinking if Si will be free. Heard from her that she received 20 messages this morning! Wow so much.. and she said she don't like to message.. No wonder sometimes never reply..haha.. So i was pondering if i should call or message her... Headache.. Finally make up my mind to call her. Listening to her voice, She sounds tired and asked me to call her house. So we hanged up and i was crossing the road and nearly being knock by this crazy honda car.. speeding like crazy even seeing there's people crossing the road.. But got to admit i was wronged to cross the road while talking on the phone too.. Anyway, because of that i reached home and realised i haven't call si.. Immediately, i called her and was asking her what she's doing. She was watching drama, so asked her to continue watch later then call me. By the time she called that was already quite late. However, i also can't think of anywhere to go as its late. Don't want her to go back late and also i had a physio therapy tomorrow morning. So think of going tampines mall catch a movie.. Really wanted to watch chronicles of narnia but she watched already.. too bad.. suggested another show instead and she asked what's is the next timing.. ard 9+pm! But end up we never catch the show as she was not feeling well.. Felt so bad that i keep asking her to meet me and not realising she's sick.. having flu.. Thus asked her to go and rest while i met terence for dinner and a short pool session before heading home. Hope she will get well soon.. going to miss her.. Take good care girl girl.. miss ya.. goodnight and sweet dreamz..

Tired Day

2006-01-03T23:30:00.000+08:00

Just came back from the gala dinner. Took bus 15 from parkway parade back home. What a long journey! Anyway, the dinner was simple. Food so-so and DJ quite entertaining. Trying to make us laugh but was kinda lame the way she talk. Dressed in a mini skirt.. Quite chio.. haha.. A tired day ended with me walking from century square back home. Took a short stroll and feeling quite relax. Now was wondering what will happen tml? Back to camp for meeting in the morning and what is up next.. Wonder if i will have time to meet her? If she is free? but i'm just too tired to ask her anymore. Perhaps time to let it go and pray there may be time some other time before she left. I can only hope so.. Nothing much to say today.. tired.. going to sleep soon.. Goodnight...

Back To Camp

2006-01-03T15:44:00.000+08:00

Just came back from camp. Was preparing the stores, bedsheets and some administrative stuff for the newly enlistees that is going to come in this thursday. However, tml still have to come back for a briefing before the new batch starts. Somehow or rather the lull period had been too long and now back in camp feeling so uneasy. I need sometime to adjust and adapt back to the army life. Tml was planning to meet her for the last time before going back camp to teach the monster. Guess this might not be happening for some reasons. One being i might not be free and other maybe she will not be free as she had her friends to entertain either. I can only pray! lolx.. Later going to parkway there for a school gala dinner. This is so last minute.. Today reach camp and was told about this.. Damn sian as i still couldn't eat much and have to avoid alcoholic drinks for the time being due to wisdom tooth! The tooth is too smart for me to handle? haha.. Hopefully everything end fast and early so that i can have more rest. Really lack of sleep ah.. haha.. blog again when i'm back..

2nd Day Of Year 2006

2006-01-03T01:06:00.000+08:00

Today as usual slept till quite late. Woke up by a msg from terence. He was asking me to meet him for lunch and later maybe going for a show as we said yesterday. Too bad, mum brought me lunch and had to eat before i go out.

Met him at Tampines mall and went straight to buy tickets. Was wondering if meng would come and watch also.. End up, i called him and ask him.. he said he want to save $$$ so not going to watch but will be coming down later. I was like stuck in the middle between him and terence. Somehow the three of us seems to have drifted away. Still remembering those early day where the 3 of us celebrated new year at boay quay.. full of memories.. Anyway, me and terence decided to go ahead and buy three tickets first if he really not watch then find someone to watch. And so we called jasline who say not interested in the show, chinese tall story.. So i called si and she was busy shopping with her mummy.. Thus had to force meng go no matter what.. But in case another stun, i informed si to come if meng don't want to watch.. And to my surprise she said anything!haha.. Anyway, before the movie we went to play another round of pool.. I need a challenger!haha.. 1915hrs went to watch the Chinese Tall Story!! LAME!! a idea show if you have no where to spend your money! haha.. But had to say its quite entertaining and real lame..

Anyway, tml going to book in tml le.. No time to accompany anyone liao.. Si, meng, friends, family.. Had to squeeze out time man!!! Will miss u guys especially meng n her..

Take care dude! blog again when i'm back...

Happy New Year!!!

2006-01-02T23:58:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year to everyone! This marks the end of year 2005.. Shall discard all the unhappiness and bring over all the happiness to 2006.. Hope to start afresh! Wish my love one, friends and family will have a smooth year and everything getting better.

Celebrated New Year with si, gl and meng. Had a great time especially being with the love one.haha.. Went to boat quay there to see the fireworks. Didn't manage to get a good view at the fireworks but was happy to be had her standing beside me. Had to say that i think that the fireworks was like more or less the same. Perhaps i was helping out national day at the carnival at marina and had seen alot of fireworks already. Guess it is the atmosphere that makes the difference. Everyone were shout "Happy New Year!", kids laughing, adult cheering and some playing with spray foam. Unfortunately, she was sprayed by a lady and was so furious.haha.. So cute of her. Anyway after the fireworks, we went to sing ktv at boat quay partyworld. I finally sang andy lau songs to her..haha.. So happy! but guess it was awful although they never commented. Gl singing was nice but too soft, guess she's shy.. haha..act demure.. However happy moments tend to fly off and i'm now preparing my stuff for tml book in. This will mean less time to see her, meet her and even do things i like to. Was still glad to have her celebrating new year with me. Guess bf not around and so giving me some chance. God, thanks man! Like to thanks my buddy meng for accompanying me although his love one wasn't there. haha.. Hope he can be more confident and let nature take course. Good luck pal! Shall write till here.. Tml going to book in..

I'll miss you si...